Monday, May 31, 2010

Just a lil update

Not too much to say. Same ol same old stuff going on around here. I am buying things here or there for the new little one, but holding off on most items until we know the gender. We have moved some furniture around.. and cleaned out our storage unit. I am really trying to get rid of a lot of the junk we have around.

Today I bought pretty much everything the kids needed in summer wear.. I think they are all set, I might buy a few items here or there if its in the budget and I like them, but for the most part I think they have everything they need.

As most of you know, we considered moving, but decided against it. Im not willing to give up my husband and his time with our family for a further commute. I am also not willing to give up my friends and family. So alas, we stay lol. Funny though... that was my plan and somehow I became sidetracked, well I know how, but we wont go into that lol. I am actually at peace now, Im not stressing about it all.

There are things we have given up so that I could be a stay at home mom, but I couldnt imagine it any other way. A house will have to come later in life..which I mean come on.. im 24..ive got time lol.

Oh and I have been looking into local preschools for aurora. However I do not intend on sending her until she is at least 3 1/2 or 4. It is very important that we find a place that will help her get ready for school as well as help build a Christian foundation. We go to church and she loves it, but I want to make sure to further her spiritual faith in preschool as well. I have considered sending her to a Christian school instead of public, but it is costly and I almost feel like its a waste of money. We live in a pretty great public school district. Actually when I look up the ratings online its rated the best in the area. Yet this is something I dont have to worry about for a few years.

Ive started a few more sewing projects....ill post pics if and when I finish them lol

Well anyways. I could sit here and type all day lol..but ill save the rest for another day.

Sunday, May 16, 2010

I just dont get it

This has been going around in my head for awhile now and I just havent really taken the time to sit down and write it.

How does someone hurt a child? And I dont mean spanking or something like that.. But I mean seriously abuse a child, or make horrible decisions that lead to a serious injury or even death!

I cant stand hearing about a child being abused, I dont know if its being a mom (well I am sure that is a large part of it) or it is the pregnancy hormones, but I get very upset. I begin to cry.. its just bad. Id rather not hear about it.

When doing my research for my English paper. I came across a newspaper article about a woman sentenced to 10 years in prison because she shook a poor little baby. She was a day care worker and the child was brain damaged. I felt so bad for that child, who will never be the same again.

Or my father was telling me about some woman who let her drunk boyfriend drive her son home, and they got into a wreck and the boy died. How do you even allow that situation to come about?

Or the worst story I ever heard...a story that I cried over for days.. A little boy was returned to its home by its grandmother, the man who was home at the time (i can not remember if it was the father of the child or just the mothers boyfriend). Took the baby boy in its carseat and put him in his carseat in the crib and there he sat for days..until he died of starvation, sitting in his own feces. Even now this brings me to tears.

How dare they? HOW DARE THEY treat a child like that? Scum of the earth I say... scum...

And then I think about that poor child, that child who had all the love in the world to give, yet the people around them just couldnt give it back.

Children are blessings, and you give them all the love and all they do is love you back. How can you not look into the face of a child and be in love? Even if its not your child. I can understand seeing an older child and being disgusted by their behavior, but in the end, its just a child. Innocent.

Home is where your heart is...

Isnt that the saying? Im not certain.

I dont think anyone really reads my blog, which sort of plays in my favor right now, because I feel like whining.

I want a house, BADLY.... But where we live its just not an option, home prices are extraordinarily expensive, even in bad areas. We get such great rent and live in a great school district, but I just cant seem to get rid of that feeling...I want to own a home.

But being an adult is knowing patience...all things come in time. John and I are working hard together to budget. We are paying down debts, hopefully soon all that will be left to tackle is the car loan and school loans..which is a lot, but it can be done. Then we can save our 3 - 6 months of an emergency fund. Then it will be time to save for a house.

I would love to be able to save 100 percent down, but that isnt likely. We will have to settle for a large down payment and a 15 year loan. Either way, its not happening for awhile.

On another note John should be graduating from school with his bachelors in about a year or so, not sure on the exact date because his school counselor hasnt returned his email yet.

The future holds so much for us, but at times its hard to wait. Today is one of those days.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Sick sick sick

Im plain sick of being sick! It seems like I turn around and get a cold lately. Now I have this horrible cough.. This wont be a long blog.. I just want to whine!!!!! It sucks.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Life as always

There isnt too much to report. I have been sick the last few days, so I havent been up to much.

My dishwasher comes tomorrow, and man am I excited.. lol Its been a long time waiting. It wont be installed for a few days though..but ive waited this long. I can wait a few more days.

Saturday my hubby turns 30! We dont know yet what we intend on doing for his birthday. According to him, he is not turning 30, but rather 29b... sure honey..whatever you say lol. I told him to think about it this way. He is a 30 year old man with a wife in her early twenties! : )

Nothing much new to report or complain about. Although I guess I could complain about lots of things lol... I think about it sometimes..of just letting myself vent here or somewhere..anywhere, but I have this stigma against it. For a few reasons. One I used to keep a journal to vent in, as a child, and my mother always read it and she was always upset with what she read. I guess I learned to keep my thoughts to myself because people sometimes dont understand that you say things in the heat of anger, but its not always entirely meant... so you hurt someone.. (though around some people I can gossip... its like word vomit flowing freely from my mouth, yet only around certain people. So now I avoid those people or avoid specific subjects with them. I also have become better at holding some thoughts in and asking for forgiveness for thoughts I just shouldnt have)

I guess I have always been the type of person who cares what other people think, especially of me. One of those "keeping up with the Jones' type". Well not anymore, Im sick of keeping up with the Jones'. Even then, I still cant bring myself to vent here, or anywhere for that matter. I vent to my husband or maybe even my close friends, but I still dont want to hurt anyones feelings.

I care too much about my friends to hurt their feelings, but maybe you could say I dont care enough to tell them all the truth... Hmm.. food for thought.